Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Distance is Only Temporary

Dear Handsome Panda,

I have taken my time in writing you back and for the delay I am sorry. It is just that each and every moment I have I find myself soaring through daydreams of you and our five wonderful days together. The feeling of your amazing kisses linger on my lips and remind me of the taste of that first summer cherry. I’m reminded how it felt to be wrapped in your arms, listening to your heartbeat and breathing in the soft smell of you. There is nothing more amazing than the paradise that is spending time with you. Next thing I know I find tears falling from my cheek and a blinking cursor taunting me back into reality. It came too slow and once it was here it flew by like the speed of light. Oh…how I miss you.

Finding words to the memories we have made is impossible it seems. My heart could sing a song for you instead…but I’m sure you already know the melody as the same notes play in your heart too. I’ve never been shown love by anyone the way that you take my hand; look in my eyes and without words just show “love”. It is storybook, surreal even.

As an eternal skeptic of the “love-at-first-sight” thing I can now fully assure the world that it does exist but only the purest form of love. From the first moment I laid my hazel eyes on the outline of your frame in the airport I felt like I was flying as I took the next steps bringing each beautiful detail of you into focus. My fear melted away. There you were, more handsome than anyone I could imagine. Your smile beaming and your eyes with their signature sparkle. I was awestruck. Our first kiss…was like walking on a rainbow over a spring rain. Nothing like that has ever happened to me before…and it was all you!!!

The gift of a promise from you was more than I could have ever imagined. It is amazing! I wear it with pride as I couldn’t imagine loving another man the way I am in love with you. Each sparkle reminds me daily of the strength of its meaning. It keeps my heart warm when I miss you so much that my tears are cold.

When the leaves here in Oregon turn golden, orange and red I’ll be leaving on a plane headed for your Arizona. I’ll be back in your arms once again and I can hardly wait to experience what is only a memory right now all over again. I can’t even begin to imagine what you have planned. Sadly I’ve been counting down silently and while we are under 100 days it still seems like an eternity.

Yesterday you surprised me again by sending the most beautiful arrangement of red roses and stargazer lilies. The thoughtfulness you show to me when I’ve had a rough time is beyond what anyone has ever shown for me before. I feel your love from me with each perfumed petal. Thank you mi amor for being better than my knight in shining armor! Thank you for being my true love!

I’m sure I’ve missed telling so much here in this blog but as I explained I have a hard time finding the verbiage to put all the cascading thoughts in my mind and heart into something readable. The best I can do is simply say I love you, with all my being, soul and heart.

I am yours…for I have promised myself to you in this life and beyond.

Distance is only temporary.


Pretty Panda

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Hardest thing to do

Dear Pretty Panda,
It has been almost 2 weeks since i left the beautiful and wonderful state of Oregon. I cant explain in words the amazing and incredible time you have shown me. Nothing was more amazing as seeing you for the first time in person. It was one of those moments that you thought was never real and made up in the movies, but this was real and amazing. You were 100x more beautiful than any picture or cam could ever picture you as. Your gift failed to even come close to the the shine, beauty, sparkle and flawlessness that is you.
Those 5 days were by far the best 5 days in my life. Nothing i dreamed of could compare to the way you felt, your touch, smell, amazing smile, eyes, in short everything about you was so much more than i could ever ask for. I am the luckiest guy in the world! Spending time with you was amazing!! I wish i had more time to spend there with you.
Our date night that you have planned was incredibly special and the most thoughtful and wonderful thing anyone has ever done for me. You looked absolutely amazing that night. You took my breath away. I could not ask for anyone more special, amazing, smart or beautiful as a girlfriend. I Love You Pretty Panda!!!
What was a wonderful dream tho turned into a nightmare. As on that last day i had to say goodbye to you to return back to the land of waterless rivers. It was the hardest thing i had to do, when i had to say goodbye to you and board that plane. As the tears from my eyes gently ran down my face i had to keep reminding myself that distance is only temporary for us and that we will have our day. I cant tell you how much i love you and that i cant wait for that day to come. You are truly amazing my love!! I love you with all my heart!!
Your Love,
Handsome Panda