Its Been Awhile

Dear Pretty Panda,
It has been a long time since we have written here and so much has happened in that time. We have gotten engaged at the happiest place on earth, planning a wedding and we have our super secret! As each days pass i love you more and more and i feel like im the luckiest guy in the world. We have a lot to look forward to and as each day draws ever near to our wedding day i cant help but build up with excitement.There are a lot of good things happening for us and i believe we are going in the right direction.

As we draw ever closer to saying our I do's I thought that we should finish off Minutes & Miles these coming months before we begin a new chapter in our lives Here & Forever. As the night draws into deeper darkness i think its time for me to fall asleep and draw one day closer to when i can be with you everyday. So goodnight my love and i await your response

Con tanto amor
Handsome Panda


The Ring:

Forever Yours

Dear Handsome Panda,

Beautiful. Amazing. Unbelievable. Glorious. There are not enough words in the human lexicon to describe the way you make me feel because you love me. The only thing I can do is tell you “I love you” and continue to hold on to each second that I have with you.

It is winter once again, and even though we don’t have any “official” date I can’t help but feel like we are approaching some undefined landmark. I’ve known for more than a year now that you were the only man I want to let into the deepest part of my being. The man that I want to spend my eternity snuggled into safe and warmed by your love. We have no date to commemorate, but at least we have the deep link we have into each other’s hearts to celebrate.

Eight days will past and soon you will be back in my world walking with me hand-in-hand. The hours can’t pass fast enough to the point when I see you walk back airport security and back into my arms again. For just 4 days you will be mine again. The thought of it all keeps my sun rising and setting each day. You are my happiness.

Whether or not we have any date to say for certain, I can say that a year of loving you has been the best year of my life. I can’t wait to see our time merge and become one.

I love you so much my darling! Forever yours...

<8>,

Pretty Panda

Its about time...

Dear Pretty Panda,

My deepest apologies for not writing sooner as things have been busy and finding the write words has been hard. The time you were here was beyond anything I could imagine. Showing you my world is something that I hope you will keep with your forever and cherish. From the moment you stepped off that plane I was elevated to a place beyond happiness, where nothing in the world seemed to matter but us. I will not forget your looks of amazement as you saw things from the very first cacti (not harvested), to the amazing Sedona scenery, to the look on your face as we over looked the city from atop the grand Ferris wheel. I love you so much mi amor! Everytime I see your face you are more prettier than when I saw you last.

There is only one word that i can think of every time i think of you, Perfect. You are everything i could ever ask for and more. The love and care you show for me is greater than anything i could have ever imagined. From a random text to let me know your thinking of me to the wonderful gifts you bestow upon me. I can only hope that i make you feel as wonderful as you make me feel. Soon will begin a new year and i cant help but say that im excited for the events that will take place. For the first time im glad a new year is here. I look forward toward all the wonderful time and memories we will share and maybe a trip to Catalina. I know you were worried about what my parents would think of you but i can tell you this that they like you and i know you will grow a close bond to my familia.

As i sit and write this mi amor i cant help but look at the picture of us on my desk and how happy we look together. Soon my love that will be everyday for us and no one will be able to keep us apart. I love you so much!!! I send you all my love and kisses and cant wait for the day i get to see you again. Te Amo!

With All My Love,

Handsome Panda

Seconds Closer

Dear Handsome Panda,

I’m staring at the clock as it ticks down, the seconds passing. Struggling to keep the sanity between the time it seems that I can’t think straight, speak with sense or breathe fully without feeling the aching emptiness I carry around in my heart not being able to be with you. I miss you.

I treasure our evenings together chatting on the phone, telling secrets between each other, playing in a pixilated world of fantasy, celebrating our precious 8/8/08, poking fun of each other, watching movies wireless, our in-depth philosophical conversations and those little moments where just the sound of your breathe over the phone line is enough to make me feel like I’m being held by you.

September has arrived and I’m starting to feel the momentum of being days closer to you. I keep looking for that first autumn leaf to fall. The symbol that means I’ll soon be boarding that plane and drifting on clouds, only to fall securely in your arms. It just can’t come soon enough.

When I was young and naïve I used to wish for a crystal ball that would show me the future. I used to wonder if I would ever find my true love and what my life would be like with them. I’ve found better then a crystal ball…I found you and I know what our future will be like…it will be full of love. Nothing could have prepared me for the way that I love you and the unconditional way that you love me in return. Forget the crystal ball as I’m convinced the future couldn’t have seen this one coming either.

The second hand is still ticking away on the clock with each echoing click bringing me closer to you. I give you those seconds and every second ever after.

I love you my darling.

<8>,

Pretty Panda

Forever Yours

Dear Pretty Panda,
At the time of you reading this you should of received a special gift from me. Today is 8/8/08. To the rest of the world it is not any different than any other day, but to us this day is a lot more special and meaningful. We have well known each other for over a year and have shared many laughs, smiles, jokes, secrets and many other emotions too long to list but the most important of these is Love. What we both sought and longed for we have found. As each day goes by I miss you more and more and long for the day when I get to see you again. I know I have been on you about selecting a date of when we started our romantic journey together but in all reality a date is nothing more than a date. I celebrate the anniversary of our love for each other each every day and with every breath and moment. I can’t begin to describe in words how incredibly lucky I am to have someone so beautiful, wonderful and perfect in my life. I love you with all my heart!! Tho at this moment I cant help but feel sorry for the beautiful flower arrangement sitting on your desk. For it has been out shined by your beauty and smile. I Love You!Love <8>Handsome Panda

Distance is Only Temporary

Dear Handsome Panda,

I have taken my time in writing you back and for the delay I am sorry. It is just that each and every moment I have I find myself soaring through daydreams of you and our five wonderful days together. The feeling of your amazing kisses linger on my lips and remind me of the taste of that first summer cherry. I’m reminded how it felt to be wrapped in your arms, listening to your heartbeat and breathing in the soft smell of you. There is nothing more amazing than the paradise that is spending time with you. Next thing I know I find tears falling from my cheek and a blinking cursor taunting me back into reality. It came too slow and once it was here it flew by like the speed of light. Oh…how I miss you.

Finding words to the memories we have made is impossible it seems. My heart could sing a song for you instead…but I’m sure you already know the melody as the same notes play in your heart too. I’ve never been shown love by anyone the way that you take my hand; look in my eyes and without words just show “love”. It is storybook, surreal even.

As an eternal skeptic of the “love-at-first-sight” thing I can now fully assure the world that it does exist but only the purest form of love. From the first moment I laid my hazel eyes on the outline of your frame in the airport I felt like I was flying as I took the next steps bringing each beautiful detail of you into focus. My fear melted away. There you were, more handsome than anyone I could imagine. Your smile beaming and your eyes with their signature sparkle. I was awestruck. Our first kiss…was like walking on a rainbow over a spring rain. Nothing like that has ever happened to me before…and it was all you!!!

The gift of a promise from you was more than I could have ever imagined. It is amazing! I wear it with pride as I couldn’t imagine loving another man the way I am in love with you. Each sparkle reminds me daily of the strength of its meaning. It keeps my heart warm when I miss you so much that my tears are cold.

When the leaves here in Oregon turn golden, orange and red I’ll be leaving on a plane headed for your Arizona. I’ll be back in your arms once again and I can hardly wait to experience what is only a memory right now all over again. I can’t even begin to imagine what you have planned. Sadly I’ve been counting down silently and while we are under 100 days it still seems like an eternity.

Yesterday you surprised me again by sending the most beautiful arrangement of red roses and stargazer lilies. The thoughtfulness you show to me when I’ve had a rough time is beyond what anyone has ever shown for me before. I feel your love from me with each perfumed petal. Thank you mi amor for being better than my knight in shining armor! Thank you for being my true love!

I’m sure I’ve missed telling so much here in this blog but as I explained I have a hard time finding the verbiage to put all the cascading thoughts in my mind and heart into something readable. The best I can do is simply say I love you, with all my being, soul and heart.

I am yours…for I have promised myself to you in this life and beyond.

Distance is only temporary.

<8>,

Pretty Panda

Hardest thing to do

Dear Pretty Panda,
It has been almost 2 weeks since i left the beautiful and wonderful state of Oregon. I cant explain in words the amazing and incredible time you have shown me. Nothing was more amazing as seeing you for the first time in person. It was one of those moments that you thought was never real and made up in the movies, but this was real and amazing. You were 100x more beautiful than any picture or cam could ever picture you as. Your gift failed to even come close to the the shine, beauty, sparkle and flawlessness that is you.
Those 5 days were by far the best 5 days in my life. Nothing i dreamed of could compare to the way you felt, your touch, smell, amazing smile, eyes, in short everything about you was so much more than i could ever ask for. I am the luckiest guy in the world! Spending time with you was amazing!! I wish i had more time to spend there with you.
Our date night that you have planned was incredibly special and the most thoughtful and wonderful thing anyone has ever done for me. You looked absolutely amazing that night. You took my breath away. I could not ask for anyone more special, amazing, smart or beautiful as a girlfriend. I Love You Pretty Panda!!!
What was a wonderful dream tho turned into a nightmare. As on that last day i had to say goodbye to you to return back to the land of waterless rivers. It was the hardest thing i had to do, when i had to say goodbye to you and board that plane. As the tears from my eyes gently ran down my face i had to keep reminding myself that distance is only temporary for us and that we will have our day. I cant tell you how much i love you and that i cant wait for that day to come. You are truly amazing my love!! I love you with all my heart!!
Your Love,
Handsome Panda